Earlier in July, I sent my friend a Facebook message thanking her for following through with her prophecy plan. Without going into specific detail, I let her know that it had encouraged me. She wrote back on July 19 thanking me for following through with her and letting me know that she was still waiting to hear one more word for me and if it came in that she would let me know.
Just moments later, she wrote:
“Whoa I just got one!!! Here it is
You have the gift of creativity, through this you reflect GOD’s beauty and creativity to the world.
I feel like you are a forerunner for God. You are watching and waiting for Him.
Are you in a time of waiting or anticipation? Know that God is with you and hears your prayers.”
Wow. I instantly started crying when I read that and it still makes me want to cry to this day. The words were so beautiful and direct I felt as though all the world had stopped for them to impact me. The timing couldn’t have been any better.
To those words I would cling for the weeks ahead. There had been many times in my life when I felt God speaking to me, but only one other time in my life was it as direct. That was in between our first miscarriage and our positive pregnancy test for MG. God had directly and specifically told me through an acquaintance that I would become pregnant that year. This time, the message was the same and just as clear. God had not abandoned us nor forgotten us. He had heard our prayers! During this time of waiting, we had searched and searched for answers and proof that God was on our side. He chose the darkest of times to shout to us that He was right beside us, holding our hands as we walked through this journey.
During this time after the miscarriage and at the conclusion of our summer, I found God calling me to contentment. Contentment with relationships, with our house, with N’s job, with our one daughter. All things that had been absolutely perfect for us 8 months ago, but now seemed lackluster and disappointing. I did my best to find my way back to that place and God strengthened me by speaking to me. Whatever happened in our future was in His hands, not ours.
We began a little remodeling project on our house. It felt good to be the ones in control of a little change in our life. We repainted, changed out floors and decorations and artwork. We noticed that our house took a turn for the worse as we began construction on each new project but we knew it would be worth it to make it to the ultimately beautiful end result.
Not very ironically, we began to feel God whispering the same message to us. Very soon we would come face to face with our beautiful end result.
To be continued…..