{continued from parts 1, 2, and 3}

He will feed His flock like a Shepherd;
He will gather the lambs with His arms,
And carry them in His bosom,
And gently lead those who are with young.
Isaiah 40:11-NKJV

And then we left for vacation.  {this one} At first, I was kind of bummed that I would find out Y or N on vacation.  If it was yes, then I wondered how I would tell N and how we would digest it being in close company with my family.  If it was no, I was afraid that it would put a huge damper on the trip.  I even contemplated not bringing the tests, but I needed to know for my own sake whether or not to continue the progesterone as it would inhibit my next cycle.

Seeing as how I’d been shot with the pregnancy hormone, I was told to not take a HPT (home pregnancy test) until 14 days after the shot.  Otherwise, the hormone might still be lingering in my body and give me a false positive.  Of course I’d been doing my Internet research though and knew that many girls “tested out” the hormone by taking a test every day until it turned negative and then continued testing until they got a positive, thereby ensuring they’d know sooner.  That was more down my alley.

So on day 7 (after ovulation),  I began.   I watched the HPT turn positive almost immediately…which was thrilling at first because it had been so long.  But I knew in my heart it was deceptive.  Having the pregnancy hormone and extra progesterone coursing through my body was confusing as well.  Once again, I wasn’t sure whether or not to trust all of the pregnancy symptoms I was experiencing.

On day 9 the line faded significantly and I was sure by day 11 it would be negative.  But it wasn’t.  Day 11 was still faint, but slightly darker?  Day 13 was equal to day 11 and by this point, I was beginning to become suspicious.  I was hoping to hold out and surprise N, but on second thought decided I couldn’t resist and I showed him the two to compare.  “They look the same to me!” he said.  We both felt our excitement building for the long-awaited day 14 test.

When I had previously thought about taking an HPT on vacation it had been disappointing.  But day 14 was surprisingly not.  I didn’t envision N and I taking the test together, nor watching it develop together, nor praying over the life in me when it turned POSITIVE.  It was a sweet and beautiful moment that I will cherish forever.  And coincidentally, the rest of my family had made plans to golf on another part of the island that day, leaving the three (four?) of us to revel in our new news together.  I was able to call the doctor and they congratulated me and told me to come in as soon as we returned home for more blood work.

When I got off the phone, I cried.  For the first time, I finally let the truth sink in that it was real.

The only thing that felt wrong was keeping it a secret.  The next day, N and I separately both began wishing that we could tell my family the good news.  They all knew that another child was deeply desired in our hearts and that we had been to a fertility clinic.  They’d been praying for us for many months.  Plus, when would we see them again in person in the next 8 weeks before we publicly announced it?  We had a brief conversation that confirmed what we both were thinking.  We should tell them now.

It was the last night of the trip.  We were high on ice cream and fun.  The sun was setting.  We were by a lighthouse.  N gathered them together and gave them a shaky, emotion-filled speech about how we knew they’d been praying for good news for us and we finally had some.  We were pregnant!  Tears and hugs and disbelief were exchanged.  It was another beautiful moment that I will always remember when I think about that trip.  They were so happy for us!

 (the night we told them our news)

For the first time in months I went to bed with a smile on my face and warmth in my heart.  It had been a long season of discouragement and disappointment.  But it seemed that in the biggest area of our life, our circumstances had been changed.  We finally were receiving this beautiful gift we’d asked for.

To be continued……

 

part V

16 Comments on The Journey to #2, part 4

  1. tricia
    January 21, 2013 at 7:30 pm (5 years ago)

    Ahh tears of absolute and utter joy!! God is so good:) xoxo.

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    • tricia
      January 22, 2013 at 7:24 pm (5 years ago)

      Oh dear, I totally was rushing to the beautiful end! The tears were there for your little one growing. What a much loved and prayed for sweet girl!!

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  2. tricia
    January 21, 2013 at 7:30 pm (5 years ago)

    Ahh tears of absolute and utter joy!! God is so good:) xoxo.

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    • tricia
      January 22, 2013 at 7:24 pm (5 years ago)

      Oh dear, I totally was rushing to the beautiful end! The tears were there for your little one growing. What a much loved and prayed for sweet girl!!

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  3. Sweet Mama K
    January 21, 2013 at 9:12 pm (5 years ago)

    Thanks, Tricia! Unfortunately, this was not the end of the road for us, but you know well how it does end– With lots of joy!

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  4. Sweet Mama K
    January 21, 2013 at 9:12 pm (5 years ago)

    Thanks, Tricia! Unfortunately, this was not the end of the road for us, but you know well how it does end– With lots of joy!

    Reply
  5. k
    January 23, 2013 at 4:40 am (5 years ago)

    <3

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  6. k
    January 23, 2013 at 4:40 am (5 years ago)

    <3

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  7. Cori Wren
    January 25, 2013 at 12:16 am (5 years ago)

    I love reading your story even if I already know it. Plus, I love looking at the pictures 🙂 Nieva is going to be the best big sister! I know you will love having two little girls to chase after!

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    • sweetmamak
      January 25, 2013 at 7:50 pm (5 years ago)

      Thank, you Cori! You were there through the best and worst of it!

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  8. Cori Wren
    January 25, 2013 at 12:16 am (5 years ago)

    I love reading your story even if I already know it. Plus, I love looking at the pictures 🙂 Nieva is going to be the best big sister! I know you will love having two little girls to chase after!

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    • sweetmamak
      January 25, 2013 at 7:50 pm (5 years ago)

      Thank, you Cori! You were there through the best and worst of it!

      Reply
  9. Malia
    February 1, 2013 at 3:32 am (5 years ago)

    AH!! I had no idea of this journey … just got tears!! So thrilled for you, sweet mama k 🙂

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  10. Malia
    February 1, 2013 at 3:32 am (5 years ago)

    AH!! I had no idea of this journey … just got tears!! So thrilled for you, sweet mama k 🙂

    Reply

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