I want them so badly.
I want a little sister for MG. A playmate, a buddy, a lifelong friend.
A confidant, a personal shopper, a maid-of-honor, a pregnancy partner.
A pair that will fight but always make up, stay up too late laughing, and always have each other’s back.
I felt it the most on a day we went to the splash park this summer. All of the other kids were there in groups. She was the only one flying solo. Our friends were easy to find there, but a part from them, it was just the two of us. And I fiercely wanted a buddy for her. A built-in-life-long friend.
A sister-brother relationship has infinite value, to be sure, but it’s one that I know nothing about. I am ready for another little girl. So I’m just going to put it out there now.
Mayby, if you are a boy, I will probably erase this someday so that you won’t read it. But I might not either, because maybe I will be able to tell you about how I “ordered” a girl (as my Nanow would say) but God had other plans for me. And I never would have known the love for a little boy if I didn’t have you. And I hope you will cut me some slack (if you even care at all….). Because….
when I think about having a boy, these are the questions I wonder:
–who will wear all of MG’s ‘very gently’ worn baby clothes? I miss them already.
–what if we don’t get to use our girl name that we love so much?
–where do I find cute boy clothes? And (more importantly) what if he’s bald? you can’t exactly use a huge bow to cover that up.
–what do I do during that awkward/clumsy/pre-pubescent 4th-8th grade boy phase? I just don’t get it.
–what if all he wants to do is play soccer? I loathe watching soccer.
–how will our house hold up under the weight of a crazy/clumsy/muddy/sweaty little boy?
–I spent 2.5 years learning how to be a mom of a girl. How hard is it going to be to change gears come May?
And the one that scares me the most:
-what if I never have another little girl?
And the one that keeps N awake:
–what if I attach more to a relationship with my son to the detriment of my relationship with MG?
These are the questions that plague me/us at night. So, Mamas of boys, should the ultrasound turn up blue, I’m going to need you to talk me through these, okay? Consider yourselves warned.
On the plus side,
+I do love watching football
+I can make some pretty mean animal noises
+Having to do some more baby clothes shopping doesn’t sound like the worst idea…and…
+Old Navy has the cutest, grey chevron onesies, PLUS H&M just opened up a kids section here
+I do consider myself quite the Lego-building-extraordinarre
+We live mere minutes (okay maybe a couple hours) away from Dinosaur World.
+It would be nice to have another gentleman (in-training) in the house
+Having a Mama’s boy doesn’t sound like the worst thing in the world
I’m definitely having some Mommy instincts about what I’m having and I plan to share those with you soon. Then you can all weigh in with me and predict what we’re having. Unfortunately, we still have 5 terribly long days to wait until we know for sure. In the meantime, I’ll be pinning cute boy clothes and lots and lots of tiny hats. Just in case,